Circle of Suffering

You know, it seems that every time i start to put faith in someone that they might be a little bit sincere with me, it blows up in my face! Of course my gut told me talking to this girl was wrong, i let her talk me into it. Have i actually gotten that lonely? Sadly, i think i may have.

Its the job man! It really has sucked the life out of me! Shit, I'm here sitting at home, bored out of my bloody mind and i get to wake up in the morning and be a slave to the telecommunication industry once again! I think that's whats driving me back in the Army. I never did want an ordinary life. It was nice always having someone to talk also. All my mates have seemed to become just as involved with their own lifes that i have with my job. Of course most of this is all my fault since i put myself in this place when i got my DUI. God how stupid i was and i never want to put my family through that every again! Ok, starting to ramble, gtg!

Thank god i'll be leaving for germany on saturday!

4 days and a wake up until I leave for Germany!!!

You know

Honestly, being here, in this place..makes me feel really alone. Always had a hard time fitting in here, hasn't got any easier i must say. Just seems like when i go to other places i have zero problems meeting people. I guess people are just scared of that 1/4 Mexican in me ^_^

Don't ask me why but pictures of people in relationships make me sick.