Work

By the time i get a day off it will be sixteen days straight! I'm hoping i can pull his off without going crazy! Its bed time so I'll post more later. Shout out to Jen if she's reading this!

My Favorite Playlist!

1. Bad Religion - Incomplete

2. Rancid - Avenues @ Alleyways

3. Dropkick Murphys - Heroes from our Past

4. NoFX - Together on the Sand

5. NoFX - The Brews

6. Black Flag - Nervous Breakdown

7. The Distillers - Sick of it All

8. Bad Religion - Let Them Eat War

9. Hole - Jennifer's Body

10. The Exploited - Sex and Violence

11. Fear - I Love Livin' in the City

12. Bloodhound Gang - Kiss me where it smells Funny

13. Social Distortion - Highway 101

14. NoFX - Kill all the White Man

15. The Offspring - The End Line

16. Bad Religion - Leave Mine to Me

17. Nine Inch Nails - March of the Pigs

18. Ministry - Burning Inside

19. Rancid - The 11th Hour

20. Motorhead - Motorhead

21. Dropkick Murphys - The Fortunes of War

22. The Sex Pistols - Submission

23. Beck - Soul Suckin' Jerk

24. Soundgarden - Let Me Down

25. Bad Religion - Los Angeles is Burning

26. Social Distortion - When the Angles Sing

27. The Misfits - American Psycho

28. Dead Kennedys - I Fought the Law

29. Primus - Fish On

30. Rancid - Daly City Train

Increased Load?

So those of you who know me know i work my ass off because the company is trying to get every dime they can out of us before our contract is over. We just received word today that they are increasing the load at work. Got to love corporate America!

Today

You know I'm starting to realize that there is something really wrong with me. Today at work i went to taco bell with my boy Greg for lunch. While we were eating a really beautiful girl came up and started talking to me about where she could get some booties that we used to cover our shoes in someone house. I really didn't say to much because i was kind of shocked at such a question. In the parking lot i hollard at her to see if she wanted a couple and of course she said yes. So i gave her a few and that was the end of it.

Now i know me and two years ago i would have at least tired to get her number and scored a dinner date. It seems this job has sucked the life out of me because all i want to do after work is chill in my room and then go to sleep. Also i know i don't really have the money because all the money i have needs to be saved to go see my kids. I disappointed them last year when i didn't show up and i don't plan on doing that again. Still, i have to wonder what is wrong with me these days! I have zero motivation to do anything anymore!!


Cheers to working 12 days in a row!


J

My Kids

The Past

So i was talking to my old friend Ginger today and she kept bring up stuff about me in highschool. Stuff i said that, well quite frankly is rather embarrassing and the way i acted. Do people really believe that i am the same person i was ten years ago? I have grown so much in the past 5 years along, not to mention the five before that. I wish for once people would ask how I'm doing and how my kids are instead of just thinking about the past.

Speaking of the past i do notice that i have a hard time remembering things from when i was in highschool. I remember most everyones faces and a few things about their personalities but that's it. Jennifer tells me stuff all that time that i have no recollection of. Was it the massive out i drugs i did in the two years after highschool? Could it be the massive amount of events that i have taken place in my life over the past six years? I think its more of the lader to be honest with you all. In the past six years I've pretty much stopped doing drugs, joined the military, went to Germany, fought in a war, become of father of two beautiful kids and built new experiences and memories through out. Highschool never was that important to me and i could care less about most of it. I've already decided that I'm' not going to any of my reunions. I figure that I'm already in touch with everyone i want to be in touch with and if i run into the others great! Who knows were i will even be then, right now I'm just hanging on until April when out union contract is up...

The Day

Its funny how much of a pussy i am about things in my life. Today for example. I had to go back to one of my former customers houses to to add a box. I was rather excited because she was pretty cool from what i remember and i was thinking about asking her out. I would have the first time but i was with someone during set time. Once i get to my customers house she actually remembers me! Sadly later i found out that she is now engaged, missed my chance. I would like to say that i shrugged my shoulders and said, ok that's life, but it actually bugged me for a few hours at work. I guess I'll just have to take more action when i think i should. I do believe i still made the right choice the first time around because i wouldn't have wanted to cheat on my girlfriend at the time, even though she ended up cheating on me ^_^

Lately I've been finding myself listening to a lot of Bad Religion and for what reason i don't' know. I wish i could expand my musical influnces more but i'm rather closed minded to a lot of new music i hear these days. I'm waiting for the death of the emo scene!

Only two more months untill i get to see my kids again!!! I can't wait i missed him so much. Its going to be a ruff trip though since they really don't know me anymore. I started to write them a letter but i never got very far with it. The things i have to write about are not the things i watn to write to my kids. I mean do i really want to tell them how i spent the weekind drinking with Grant and playing x-box? Thats usually my life right now though i am wanting to change that asap! Not that i don't like hanging with Grant or anything but i'm wasting away my weekends doing with that. Maybe i'll see if Troy wants to hit up the bars next weekend.